This year was a long year. It was a year of learning. A year of turnarounds. A year of losses.
My grades went up, but I became depressed. Gained weight, and realized who my true friends are. The biggest loss was my brother Matt.
There was so much going on in my life. This has been the biggest up-and-down year for me. Coming into this school year, I was doing great. My grades skyrocketed from D's and F's to A's and B's. Then my brother Matt passed away. I became depressed, and put on a lot of weight.
Some friends turned on me, and it took time to realize who my true friends are. I finally have, and I'm just happy with the friends I have.
This winter was a tough time for me. It had it's ups and downs. Struggling with the weight and the fact of losing Matt just kept taking it's toll on me, over and over.
Eventually, it all started to fade. I made new friends, and started hanging out with some of my old friends again. The depression just descended from that point forward.
I dropped 45 pounds, and the depression still hasn't returned until this day. I'm doing good in school, having fun with my friends, and overall just enjoying life.
Of course life will never be the same without Matt, but he is still here with me. His blood still runs through my veins, and he is my Guardian Angel. Whether or not he is physically here with us, our brotherhood will never be taken away.
Although this year was very intense on my family and I, it has really shaped who I am. I've seen every side of life. Happiness, sadness, loneliness, and even death. It showed me that life isn't always pretty. It made me realize how realistic some things are.
That's why you need to enjoy every day like it is your last, because you never know. To this day forward, that is how I will live. I have a lot of exciting things coming up, and I am going to keep my positive attitude.
It has been fun blogging all year, and I will miss it. Summer 2011, here I come!
